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About Cristal

"Believe you can and you're halfway there."~Teddy Roosevelt

You, beloved Lord

You, beloved Lord,
Seek me when I do not deserve,
Love me when I am unlovable,
Cherish me when I am wretched.

You beloved Lord,
Guide me no matter where I stray,
Save me when I cause disarray,
Hold me when I fall away.

You beloved Lord,
Are the only light throughout the day,
Are all mighty until the end,
Are grace and glory beyond the age.

His Response

The only love I’ll ever need,
Is knowing Christ is there for me.
I waited for answers I sought,
And God answered through my thought.
Put your faith in Christ the Lord,
Learn His ways and read the word.
Jesus is with us till the end,
All our brokenness He’ll mend.

Trust Your Light

I wish there was no longer any fear.
Please tell me now why I do worry?
Why am I so scared to shed my tears?
Why am I ready to change in such a hurry?

Why? Oh why?
Am I not good enough
To be content with just being myself?

Why? Oh Why?
Why is it hard to say?
That I am beautiful and I was made that way.

I wish there was a way to have no regret.
To sing when I want to, to love when I need to.
To dance without worry, to hope without fear.
To be who I am and to be full of cheer.

Why? Tell me why?
Am I holding myself back
from being who I am?
From trusting myself
from looking within?

Why is it so hard to stop
worrying about what others think?
Why is it so difficult
to have true confidence in my identity?

I wish for all to be who they are.
To trust in your purpose, have faith in His promise
To love without limits, to trust in the outcome.
To hope in the future and feel like you’re home.

I wish there was no more suffering.
I hope that everyone can say the same.
To love yourself is not an easy thing.
Please be yourself without any shame.

Love and trust for you are who you are.
Bless the world with light from your star.

Take a Chance

How does one control their actions in such a way where they forget what’s important? I don’t want to just be forgotten. I want to be remembered for something extraordinary. If only there was a way everything could be blocked out to where nothing mattered except for what you needed to get done. What if you could live in a bubble and only focus on your immediate surroundings and forget the outside world. Life would be simpler if that could happen but it wouldn’t be real because people would only be focusing on themselves not others. If we had a choice to only focus on ourselves and not pay attention to the outside world, please don’t decide to live in that bubble and trap yourself off to relationships and community. Sure, the world gets hard. It gets difficult to power through while not forgetting who you are, but no matter how difficult the world gets around us, we need to keep pushing forward. We need to keep helping those around us, and keep influencing actions that inspire new ideas.

I believe that everybody was put on this world to inspire others. So break out of that shell, pop the bubble, open up to others and let them help you. You will be helping them in return by creating bonds and relationships incomparable to materialistic possessions or solitude. Personally, I don’t want to do nothing worthwhile with my life. I don’t want to just go through school receiving meaningless grades, just to have a career that doesn’t do any good for others. I want to be the one that has a purpose. I will go out and risk my life with that purpose in mind. I will do what I have to to make a difference in this world and to touch the lives of those around me. I will give anything to just have a chance to be the positive change someone needs. One chance is all it takes.

So if you get that chance to help somebody, take it. It doesn’t have to be risking your life, it could be as simple as smiling at somebody as you pass them in the store or giving a helping hand to somebody who needs you to carry their bags. Take the opportunity make a difference in the world. I believe that everybody has the opportunity to do good; that everybody is able to make a difference in those around them and able to touch the lives of those who need it most.

Stand up, make a difference, and show the world where you belong.

Stand to Fight

Hidden away from the world and from the conversation.
Resigned, content, never assigning a designation.
People do not realize or see how much they show and share,
They continuously speak and don’t seem to ever care.
An experiment, a puzzle, a quiet little test,
To discover if there’s something different among the rest.
Slowly someone rises to meet the challenges set forth,
Determining to each other what others may be worth.
But as soon as they started out, they fell back with worry,
Running from the ideal set before them in a hurry.
Then another arises to take on the task ahead,
Only to be caught between fear and the tears that they shed.
Nobody else there willing to rise up and take a stand.
No one here in this world will dare to give a helping hand.
Then suddenly as if a message was sent through the dust,
A hero approaches the problem knowing someone must.
A brave, simple citizen not known to many around,
A soldier to fight the battles in the name of the town.
Ordinary people have the power to create change,
And show all those around that heroism has no range.
Stand up to what you believe in because you have the right,
Never let fear diminish your own starkly dazzling light.

World Beyond Sight

Relief spreads across like a layer of dust,
Covering what it touches, but missing some spots.
The stress temporarily heeded off,
Nevertheless leaving it’s holder with knots.

Steady winds blow over the ground,
Embarking on a journey for a new land.
Suffering will continue this way,
Reaching the realm beyond what can.

Sorrow being flushed out of sight,
But happiness not appearing.
The universe creating everlasting light,
But preventing darkness from fading.

Winter woods casting shadows over life,
Tsunamis engulfing what is in sight.
Disasters existing all around us,
Don’t let that prevent you from doing what’s right.

Hidden Hardships

Life is a struggle,
Life is a journey,
Life will beat you down,
Life is a tourney.

Constant competition,
continuous comparison.

It feels like everything comes crashing down like the moon collapsing from the sky.
Hardships that are too hard to bear, events where you cannot cry.

Everyone has this one point where they are so beaten they’re blank.
It’s like the emotions build up, are too much, and then close away.

Do not let this happen, or at least don’t let it last,
Control your emotions, do not leave them in the past.

Trust others to share the burdens with you,
Unite together to give each other a tissue.

By believing that there is a place where you belong,
By knowing that by being sad, you’re not wrong,
By seeing that even when events turn upside down,
You’re friends are with you here to turn your life around.

Life is worry,
Life is pain,
Life is strife,
Life will beat you again.

No matter what pain you have,
Share it with those who care,
For the worst thing you can ever do,
Is never actually share.

 

New Life

Why have you forsaken me?
Isn’t being away from home enough?
Why must you continue to throw more my way.
How did this road become so rough?

There is so much anger and fear,
And it is trapped inside of me, here.
I wish it had somewhere to vent,
But my life is trapped inside this tent.

Injuries that keep coming around,
Music that can make no sound.
Marching until I can not anymore,
Hustling until being hit by a door.

I miss the ability to speak whenever,
I miss the chance to go wherever.
I miss the home I had with my family and friends,
I miss the life I thought could never end.

Don’t get me wrong, I love life here,
But after a while it just creates tears.
A new life with new opportunities to seize,
An old life with friends and family to leave.

Uphill Battle

My time you take up
With constant worry and strife
My life you’ve engulfed
But you will not defeat me.

No matter how many expectations,
No matter the regulations,
You will not cause me to quit.
You will not force me to lose my grit.

I will stand after the battle,
I will hold on.
You will not make me rattle,
I will stand strong.

Sometimes I feel beaten and down,
You turn my life and schedule around.
But I will never give up the fight,
For I will battle for my rights.

Green shields may hold me,
But they will never bound me.
I will not be here for eternity,
For when I achieve this, I will be free.

My life you make up
With continuous stressing.
But just being here’s,
An everlasting blessing.

Hidden

Everybody is afraid of something
Remember that no matter what, you are not alone.
Passion encompasses us in nothing
Learn to break through if you feel you’re not done.

Life is an endless river of suffering,
Constantly pulling in different directions.
Life is cruel and unforgiving,
Always taking those close to us.

Why must everything good end?
Why must everything living die?
The struggle inside is hard to face,
For fear won’t let me cry.

Pain is underneath what’s there,
But is unknown to those who see.
For emotion can be hidden and spared,
But a facade can leave one empty.

I do not wish to go back and lose a part of me,
I just wish that it would hurt less.
Why must everything suddenly end,
Why can’t there be one unlike the rest?

 

Pain

Why do you always feel like tearing down what I believe in? I need support if I want to continue breathing.
But everyday I see you and you cannot see me, why do I feel this way? Somebody please tell me.

Pain is something we all feel, is something we all need. Pain shows us who we are and who we want to be. Pain brings us back to reality.
Life is hard when you are stressed, you always think of how you dress.

Maybe you don’t but that’s okay, because embarrassed pain will go away.
Pain is something we all have, is something we all need. Pain shows us we are real and actually living beings.
Why I do I feel this way inside? Let me tell you exactly why. I won’t let anyone cause me pain anymore.

Be happy for who you are, be yourself and you’ll go far.
Make sure to always remember, Be yourself.

Sorrow, will go away tomorrow,
Remember that you are yourself, no matter what they tell you.
You are you, don’t let anybody change you.

Listen now ’cause you will see, we all are facing reality. Exactly like the others on this Earth.
So next time you feel depressed or pain, remember that it’s no small thing. But you are not ever alone in life.

Other people are suffering, below the surface they’re in misery.
Be kind to them and you will help yourself.
Selflessness goes a long way. In helping brighten up your day.
Don’t be afraid to help. You’re special, yes you are. Be yourself, and you’ll go far.

‘Cause pain is momentary, pain will make you wary. Pain will rule your life, unless you stop it.
So Stand up and see the birds, go outside remember these words. You are yourself and that’s all anyone can ask.
Do not take on more than that task. Be yourself.

Underneath

Invisibility exists all around us.
Air, mist, and sometimes even us.

There are a thousand different sides of me;
Refusing to come out, refusing to be seen.
A passion that lays underneath the known.
Forever I am trapped, forever alone.

Everyday a person falls. Everyday someone’s born.
Life is a leaf on a tree, waiting to be torn.
Do not waste the little moments you get,
your life is your own, not someone’s pet.

Invisibility exists all around us.
Air, mist, and sometimes even us.

People only see what is lying on the outside.
Nobody pays attention to what’s underneath the tide.
Everybody is invisible even if they do not know it.
Everyone has a this side where they’re too afraid to show it.

No matter who you are or what you do,
There’s always one person who knows the real you.
Be confident in yourself, don’t care what others think,
Be who you want to be, don’t care about some kink.

Invisibility exists all around us.
Air, mist, and sometimes even us.

Everyone, past and present, puts on a show;
Hiding things they don’t want others to know.
But is the answer really to hide and be scared?
No it is not! Show others you care.

No matter who they are or what they do:
Everyone hides, including you.
Never let your spirits be shattered,
Because in the end, you’re the one who matters.

Quiet Questioning

Who am I really inside myself?
What happens after I live to my fullest?
Where will I end up after my time is done?
When will I accomplish mission and test?

Why am I here on this planet alike?
How will I succeed in my life that awaits me?
Who will show me the way to the light?
What will stand before the path to victory?

Where will this guide of mine come from?
When will I meet the right one?
Why would they come to help me escape?
How will they show it when they are done?

Who is this mysterious figure?
What do they want by helping me?
Where will they go once they are through?
When will they leave, will I ever see?

Why do they have to leave my side?
How will they survive?
Who will I be when they finally go?
What will I be, if I’m really alive?

Where will I end up when my journey is over?
When will I meet my final end?
Why can I not stay with them?
How will I ever find them again?